Yellow Girl

Apparently I'm not sleeping tonight. Or rather, this morning. I went to sleep around 12:30 AM and woke up around 4. I've been up since.

I just went to the bathroom and, somehow, in the last hour, I've gotten totally yellow and zombie-like. My first reaction was, “Whoa, look how scary and sick I look.” But then I changed it to, “Look how sexy and beautiful I am! I'm a yellow, sexy woman. Look at me, I'm yellow girl and I'm gorgeous!”

I did a little dance and laughed at myself in the mirror. I told myself that if anyone could make jaundice amazing, sexy and cute, it was me.

I don't know what will happen today. Maybe I'll be admitted to the hospital. Maybe my headache will get out of hand and I'll suffer and cry through the DEXA scan. Maybe my headache will completely go away and the scan results will be amazing. Maybe I'll never get another headache again and get to stay home with my wonderful animals and be in my sacred space instead of trying to do yoga and make juice in a hospital room. Who knows? It's up to my outlook and the Universe. I trust that everything will turn out as it should. If I can see the life, joy and love in every moment, even if it's while being hooked up to tubes and machines, then I will make it through.

After all, today I'm that amazing super hero, Yellow Girl!