Yellow Girl

Apparently I'm not sleeping tonight. Or rather, this morning. I went to sleep around 12:30 AM and woke up around 4. I've been up since.

I just went to the bathroom and, somehow, in the last hour, I've gotten totally yellow and zombie-like. My first reaction was, “Whoa, look how scary and sick I look.” But then I changed it to, “Look how sexy and beautiful I am! I'm a yellow, sexy woman. Look at me, I'm yellow girl and I'm gorgeous!”

I did a little dance and laughed at myself in the mirror. I told myself that if anyone could make jaundice amazing, sexy and cute, it was me.

I don't know what will happen today. Maybe I'll be admitted to the hospital. Maybe my headache will get out of hand and I'll suffer and cry through the DEXA scan. Maybe my headache will completely go away and the scan results will be amazing. Maybe I'll never get another headache again and get to stay home with my wonderful animals and be in my sacred space instead of trying to do yoga and make juice in a hospital room. Who knows? It's up to my outlook and the Universe. I trust that everything will turn out as it should. If I can see the life, joy and love in every moment, even if it's while being hooked up to tubes and machines, then I will make it through.

After all, today I'm that amazing super hero, Yellow Girl!

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Health Update

Whoa. I am so totally overdue for a health update. Sorry, people.

I'm afraid that this time the lack of news is not because I've been doing great but rather because I've been so busy being sick/being in the hospital.

My main problem has been headaches and migraines. Yes, there is a difference. And I'll get them at the same time. We think the headaches (which start in the neck and have occurred since my aneurysm-worthy stress test) may be because of some pinched nerve from the stress test. Yesterday even had an episode where it felt like the whole right side of my brain went numb. Probably not a good sign. The other thing has been heart palpitations that can get really severe. And, of course, constipation because of the tremendous amount of narcotics I'm having to take.

I've been to the ER three times in the past week. First time for a headache. Second time for abdominal pain and vomiting and then I got a headache while I was there. Third time, last night (or rather, this morning) for a headache/migraine.

So we're thinking: NEUROLOGIST. I'm also thinking I should just be admitted to the hospital while they do investigative work so that I can have pain control. This back-and-forth from home and the ER is very tiring on all of us, especially my mom who is at her first day of school today accompanying for the Wesleyan students. It's also Natalie's first day of college at UNL! She's moved into the dorm and seems to be enjoying herself.

Anyway, in other news, the insurance stuff is stable for now.

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ER visit

I had a horrible headache and nausea today. No amount of narcotics or Imitrex was helping. I think the headache was mostly leftovers from the stress test but I'm sure some sinus pressure was added in.

I went to the ER and they gave me Zofran for the nausea and morphene for the headache. The headache didn't go completely away but I'm not complaining. The pain was just terrible. I could hardly think.

Now I'm at home and Gramma has made me cold cucumber soup and I'm reading and making lucky stars. Tomorrow I go to Omaha for my regular appointment with my liver doctor. I get to go visit my friend Rayne while I'm there which I'm looking forward to.

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